With fibromyalgia (FM) I am always exhausted, and never seem to get enough sleep. Late nights and early mornings have plagued my life for as long as I can remember. Over the last year, I have found myself in need of a nap about midday. I used to think it was only Bipolar which affected my sleep. Now not only is it hard to fall asleep at night regardless of how exhausted I am but I seem to be continuously waking up around 4 am and I am wide awake. I still feel exhausted, but I can’t go back to sleep. About 1 pm I just can’t keep my eyes open, and I fall asleep (nap-time) wherever I am. Trying to fight is has been useless.
Early mornings are pleasant because I haven’t slept long enough to be stiff and I am wide awake. Wide awake is not what I would use to describe my level of conciseness when I slither out of bed at my usual 6 am. It’s quiet inside and out. I have the pond outside if it is not too cold and inside I have my blog (which I take outside with me on occasion). The quiet calms me. I seem to think clearer and translate my twisted thoughts into words that I can somehow type. It isn’t that easy when there are distractions during the day.
Early mornings sometimes means fishing. Mike is an avid bass fisherman. He likes to fish 3 to 4 times a week when he can. I love to go with him and just relax in the boat. I used to fish right along with him. Fishing came to an abrupt halt when my psoriasis attacked my hands bad enough that they were cracked and bled . When they are on the mend, I sometimes fish, but I mostly relax and write. I love being outdoors and being on the lake is the best. The only place I would rather be than the lake is in the mountains on the bank of a beautiful stream loaded with trout.
Today it was fishing, and it is an incredible day to be on the water. It is partly cloudy on one side of the lake and totally overcast on the other so depending on where you are, dictates the amount of sun you are getting. I am a total sun baby and will take as much as I can get, but since psoriasis came into my life, I have to be careful of how much I allow myself to soak up. Breakouts are more common when I have been overexposed to the sun.
The sad part of an early morning is that when midday comes around, I am going to need a nap. I can try to avoid it, and there have been a few instances where I have been able to do that but by bed time I am miserable. Today I am going to suck it up. Walking on the treadmill will be the goal or to put in a yoga DVD and see if I can somehow get through it that way.